just a thought....

fear, feel
the pain renewed
i laugh at the thought.
nothing new
to me.
pain is never real
just a thought
in a mind.
the darkness unfolds
and i show my true colors
in the light
and it blinds me
to your glaring eyes.
you are useless to me
yet i long to see
you accept me for me.
i can't be better
than what i have been
but failure is as far from reach
as success seems to be.
i fall
but no ground to embrace me
just the eyes
i cannot see.
i showed you who i am
now the hate brings the pain.
just a thought
in a mind.
never any more
than a thought
in a mind.

but it feels so real.